entahlah
i don't know why i want to write about this
maybe because i just want to remind myself how lucky i am
when things get hard.
marriage is not an easy job
it is surely a commitment
where you can't run or hide
if you want to make it work
yes, it takes two to tango,
cuz being alone in marriage, means hell.
bi is what i call him
hubby, or abi for our kids
at the times, i listen to my friends saying they are tired because of the housework
bi does the laundry in our home,
he washes and dries the clothes,
i just fold my own clothes and iron our working attire.
i am beyond grateful.
at few moments, i listen to my friends how tiring and messy the house with small kids
i chuckle as that is our home too
but bi cleans and arranges all the furniture in our house
whenever he is free,
sometime once in a month, once in a fortnight, sometimes once in 3 months
it is up to him
but i will just help with the little things to keep things in place
kutip mainan Zayd, kemas lantai dapur every meal, susun buku yg Zayd asyik jatuhkan, kutip serangga merapu, hapuskan semut yg dtg
hahahha
so we share the burden
i am beyond grateful for that
at some days, i listen to my friends saying their husband and the meals of the day
bi eats everything i cook
seriously, without complaining anything
it is just when the delicacy fits his appetite
he eats triple of his usual intake and say he likes it
i am beeyoooonndddd grateful for that
and being a married couple,
surely we have bits to hate each other's habit
hehehhe
he likes to 'entertain' the handphone when eating
he showers too long
he likes to arrange his attire and asks me thousand times to choose the clothes
he is not the one who is always romantic
(bur he never hurts me with his words too, kinda hard too explain this, i think because we used to be friend, so our jokes is quiet 'over' to each other)
i think his praises to me is limited (hahhah, i like to be praised)
whatever it is,
he never treats me harsh (physically and verbally)
he cares when i am tired or sad
he tries his best for me and the kids
and i would never want him to feel worst about himself
i always pray to Allah, if it is the destiny that i would meet Allah first one day,
i really want him to remarry,
i want someone to accompany him and ease him
and if there is destiny to poligamy,
i always pray, the other side is really pious and kind,
so she can make our life happy and easier
i am happy, bi is happy, she is happy
bi can be really fair
because
i hate negative emotion in my life
whatever it is,
i just don't want him to cheat on me
if anything happen,
i just pray he can stay true and honest
he can surely talk about everything with me
i am his bestfriend
he is my best buddy ever
in this relationship,
there is nothing guaranteed
we just need to work it together
and leave the rest to Allah.
