tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42094278983917502682024-02-19T18:08:19.865+08:00~st0ries in my miNd~'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.comBlogger176125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-14797742898284079292017-07-20T07:41:00.000+08:002017-07-20T16:03:56.827+08:00My Kids<div style="text-align: center;">
2012</div>
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23 years old</div>
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i get married with Muhammad Amir</div>
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2014</div>
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25 years old</div>
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My first son</div>
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Zayd Bin Muhammad Amir</div>
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Contraction-Like-Crazy : 10 p.m - 2.41 a.m (appx 5 hours)</div>
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KPJ seremban</div>
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2.7 kg</div>
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52 cm</div>
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SVD</div>
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38 weeks</div>
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*showing bloody sign</div>
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2017</div>
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28 years old</div>
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My second girl</div>
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Widad Bin Muhammad Amir</div>
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Contraction-Like-Crazy : 4 p.m - 7.43 p.m (appx 4 hours)</div>
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SALAM senawang</div>
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3.13 kg</div>
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53 cm</div>
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SVD</div>
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37 weeks</div>
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*contraction</div>
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the next as i planned will be on 2020 (31y.o) and 2023 (34 y.o)</div>
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i planned to stop before 35 y.o </div>
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kita merancang, Allah merancang</div>
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sebaik-baik perancang adalah Allah</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-2546752933552551502017-07-20T07:29:00.001+08:002017-07-20T07:29:05.961+08:00My Second Go<div style="text-align: center;">
i had delivered my baby on 7th of May 2017</div>
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i felt the contraction since morning about 10 a.m</div>
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and it didn't go away</div>
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so we decided to go back to Seremban</div>
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as we planned to deliver there</div>
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we arrived around 12 or 1 </div>
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and admitted in SALAM hospital</div>
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i ate nasi kandaq, heavenly in the suite</div>
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Zayd stayed with us,</div>
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with the help of my MIL and handphone</div>
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hahaha, to keep him insane ;p</div>
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at that time, i was already 4cm if i'm not mistaken</div>
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doc broke my water at 4 p.m</div>
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the rest was pain</div>
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accelerated pain like crazy</div>
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and i delivered my baby girl at 7.43</div>
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37 weeks</div>
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she was 3.13kg</div>
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alhamdulillah</div>
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thank you Allah for everything</div>
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the easy delivery</div>
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no complication</div>
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husband by my side</div>
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and healthy lil girl</div>
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alhamdulillah</div>
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"nikmat Allah yang manakah yg kamu dustakan?"</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-37067274364553307702017-04-22T11:46:00.000+08:002017-04-22T11:46:37.883+08:0035 weeks in second pregnancy<div style="text-align: center;">
i gain quiet a number of fat </div>
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*sigh</div>
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it is more than 15kg</div>
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i hope i can get my weight back in bf phase</div>
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baby likes to move</div>
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she is okay</div>
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my belly is quiet low</div>
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semua org cakap dh ke bawah</div>
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tapi doc macam okay je</div>
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doakanlah semua okay</div>
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bersalin mudah</div>
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tak da komplikasi</div>
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bersalin normal</div>
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mudah sikit nak jaga</div>
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doakan, doakan, doakan</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-21601131783983375922017-04-22T11:35:00.000+08:002017-07-20T07:31:12.895+08:00hubby<div style="text-align: center;">
entahlah</div>
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i don't know why i want to write about this</div>
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maybe because i just want to remind myself how lucky i am</div>
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when things get hard.</div>
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marriage is not an easy job</div>
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it is surely a commitment</div>
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where you can't run or hide</div>
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if you want to make it work</div>
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yes, it takes two to tango,</div>
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cuz being alone in marriage, means hell.</div>
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bi is what i call him</div>
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hubby, or abi for our kids</div>
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at the times, i listen to my friends saying they are tired because of the housework</div>
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bi does the laundry in our home,</div>
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he washes and dries the clothes,</div>
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i just fold my own clothes and iron our working attire.</div>
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i am beyond grateful.</div>
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at few moments, i listen to my friends how tiring and messy the house with small kids</div>
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i chuckle as that is our home too</div>
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but bi cleans and arranges all the furniture in our house</div>
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whenever he is free, </div>
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sometime once in a month, once in a fortnight, sometimes once in 3 months </div>
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it is up to him</div>
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but i will just help with the little things to keep things in place</div>
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kutip mainan Zayd, kemas lantai dapur every meal, susun buku yg Zayd asyik jatuhkan, kutip serangga merapu, hapuskan semut yg dtg</div>
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hahahha</div>
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so we share the burden</div>
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i am beyond grateful for that</div>
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at some days, i listen to my friends saying their husband and the meals of the day</div>
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bi eats everything i cook</div>
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seriously, without complaining anything</div>
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it is just when the delicacy fits his appetite</div>
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he eats triple of his usual intake and say he likes it</div>
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i am beeyoooonndddd grateful for that</div>
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and being a married couple,</div>
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surely we have bits to hate each other's habit</div>
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hehehhe<br />
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he likes to 'entertain' the handphone when eating</div>
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he showers too long </div>
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he likes to arrange his attire and asks me thousand times to choose the clothes</div>
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he is not the one who is always romantic </div>
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(bur he never hurts me with his words too, kinda hard too explain this, i think because we used to be friend, so our jokes is quiet 'over' to each other)</div>
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i think his praises to me is limited (hahhah, i like to be praised)</div>
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whatever it is,</div>
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he never treats me harsh (physically and verbally)</div>
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he cares when i am tired or sad</div>
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he tries his best for me and the kids</div>
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and i would never want him to feel worst about himself</div>
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i always pray to Allah, if it is the destiny that i would meet Allah first one day,</div>
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i really want him to remarry,</div>
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i want someone to accompany him and ease him</div>
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and if there is destiny to poligamy,</div>
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i always pray, the other side is really pious and kind,</div>
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so she can make our life happy and easier</div>
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i am happy, bi is happy, she is happy</div>
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bi can be really fair</div>
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because</div>
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i hate negative emotion in my life</div>
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whatever it is,</div>
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i just don't want him to cheat on me</div>
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if anything happen,</div>
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i just pray he can stay true and honest</div>
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he can surely talk about everything with me</div>
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i am his bestfriend</div>
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he is my best buddy ever</div>
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in this relationship,</div>
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there is nothing guaranteed</div>
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we just need to work it together</div>
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and leave the rest to Allah.</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-43189151840962882762017-02-13T10:07:00.000+08:002017-02-13T10:07:20.623+08:0025 weeks<div style="text-align: center;">
this is my second pregnancy</div>
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it has been 25 weeks already</div>
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sorry dear baby, mummy is so busy with work and abang Zayd</div>
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so i spent less time writing bout you</div>
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but whatever it is </div>
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you are always in my do'a and heart</div>
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i just wish and pray</div>
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my little baby is physically, emotionally, mentally perfect in nature</div>
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sempurna kejadiannya sebagai seorang manusia</div>
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fizikalnya, mentalnya, emosinya</div>
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sempurna akhlaknya sebagai muslimah nanti</div>
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yes, we had that scan that said you are a girl!</div>
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abi has the name already and mummy kinda agrees to it</div>
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widad</div>
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and yeah, carrying you is less vomiting time rather than when iwas with Zayd</div>
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perhaps because this is my second pregnancy</div>
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i don't crave sweet things too much</div>
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but i eat like hell, hahahha, so i gain quiet a number of fat</div>
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i can cook, i love cook</div>
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i love coffee</div>
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i just pray you are born healthy and perfect</div>
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insyaAllah.</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-29115654231679927582016-12-16T09:23:00.003+08:002016-12-16T09:25:30.967+08:00it's ok, it's ok.<div style="text-align: center;">
i was once hard-hearted</div>
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then i realized</div>
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man, did not like that one</div>
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so, i decided to change myself</div>
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being hard-hearted is equal to be independent and do thing on your own virtue</div>
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so, being soft-hearted is to do things based on people's feelings</div>
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if they don't like it, you don't even talk about it, don't try to trigger it</div>
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what you reckon wrong, and i kept doing it wrong and it hurt me damn hell</div>
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i avoid it</div>
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but then you said i was so dependent</div>
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'tak taulah klu i mati nnti apa jadi"</div>
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i was like...what?</div>
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do you think i am that useless?</div>
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so, that day, slowly i decided to have myself back</div>
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and today</div>
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you said i ego, tak dgr cakap, hati keras</div>
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fine<br />
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* i would never forget what you said to me once i was 5 months-pregnant<br />
that was my turning point </div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-70795624784696475372016-12-16T09:07:00.001+08:002016-12-16T09:07:16.917+08:00second dilemma<div style="text-align: center;">
This pregnancy is almost the same as the first</div>
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There are days I vomit non-stop</div>
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Especially when my emotion is not stable at all</div>
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There are days I enjoy eating</div>
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which is rareeeelyyyyy to happen</div>
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Whatever it is</div>
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This pregnancy makes me more fragile</div>
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selalu nak rasa sedih</div>
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jadi akan link kepada jadi emo</div>
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T.T'</div>
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Zayd kena marah teruk hari tu</div>
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it makes me miserable till today :(</div>
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O Allah, give me strength and patience</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-9376992474158097652016-11-10T14:25:00.000+08:002016-11-10T14:26:20.283+08:00tougher and resilient<div style="text-align: center;">
tak perlu menangis</div>
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tak da siapa akan menghargai air mata itu</div>
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malah mungkin akan mengecilkanmu</div>
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tak perlu marah</div>
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kerna tidak berbaloi sekali perasaanmu itu</div>
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malah mungkin meremehkanmu</div>
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anak-anak</div>
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adalah anugerah</div>
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walau apa cabarannya</div>
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anak-anak</div>
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adalah jiwa dan hidup umi</div>
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demi Allah umi mencuba</div>
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being soft and dependent, were things i tried to be. </div>
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it was hard, and unappreciated.</div>
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better be the one i used to be</div>
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be tougher be resilient</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-11920625941118890752016-09-24T12:46:00.001+08:002016-09-24T12:47:54.048+08:00Alhamdulillah 'Ala Kulli Haal<div style="text-align: center;">
Alhamdulillah 'Ala Kulli Haal</div>
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katanya this phrase should be said when we receive bad news only</div>
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i like to have it whether it is good and bad</div>
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because i know </div>
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every bad things that i perceive, there is a good thing behind it</div>
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every good things i have, surely there is a challenge i need to face</div>
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and i want my heart to know</div>
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whatever it is</div>
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it is what we call dunya</div>
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a place of challenge and tribulation</div>
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there are no eternity here</div>
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this news is the good one</div>
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surely</div>
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but it is going to be the tough one</div>
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surely</div>
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may Allah bless me</div>
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May Allah bless abi, umi and Zayd to receive new people in our family</div>
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May He provide us with energy and patience to handle and cope everything </div>
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in good and gentle manner and attitude</div>
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:)</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-65936176614978756462016-08-10T10:52:00.002+08:002016-08-10T10:52:56.625+08:00cita-cita<div style="text-align: center;">
Saya tahu</div>
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perempuan yang sangat solehah</div>
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mampu membangunkan rumahtangga dan anak-anak dengan baik</div>
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dan dalam kes ini</div>
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dalam masyarakat, </div>
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perempuan sesuai sebagai surirumah</div>
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saya tahu mungkin itu yang terbaik</div>
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tapi untuk diri saya</div>
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saya punya impian</div>
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saya mahu jadi seseorang yang penting dalam bidang pendidikan</div>
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because education is a process where people can be a better human</div>
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and i strongly believe it is essential to mould a good muslim</div>
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i have my degree and pathway that not everyone has it</div>
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:')</div>
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i want to change these ridiculous system and policies</div>
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i want to change this absurd mindset</div>
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i want to kick people who are selfish</div>
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but somewhere my 'kudrat' is not enough</div>
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and i pray to Allah </div>
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He will show me my way</div>
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:)</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-65562747890029162152016-06-22T08:38:00.003+08:002016-06-22T08:38:56.850+08:00Perempuan<div style="text-align: center;">
Lately ni, i have a feeling</div>
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perhaps because of the story i was fed,</div>
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by the media and also reality.</div>
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penatnya jadi perempuan.</div>
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salah kena, tak salah pun kena</div>
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listened to the story where she was raped, tortured and killed because she refused to have sex</div>
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listened to the story where she was hit because her husband was tired and children were crying</div>
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listened to the story where her husband forbade her to meet her family and locked her</div>
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listened to the story where all the responsibility of bearing children were put solely on mother's shoulder because that's the nature of woman: to bear children</div>
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the list goes on, like crazy</div>
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what is more crazy? the society blames them. </div>
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the worst? the so-called religious society blames them</div>
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'tu la, x nak dengar cakap suami'</div>
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'tu la, padan muka kuar rumah sorang-sorang'</div>
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'kan dh kata kena sujud kat suami, buat je la'</div>
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and i almost scream it out of my lung</div>
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no, this is not my religion. My religion is not biased.</div>
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deep, inside, i pray to Allah.</div>
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no Allah, this is not the case. </div>
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i know you are true and compassion. it is the man that misunderstands your word. help me to understand this.</div>
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An-Nisa</div>
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especially verse 32 (i favour this one)</div>
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there are so much explanation He says about me and you. </div>
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He is so-just that He never underestimates woman. He appreciates us and makes rules to protect and guide us all. </div>
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It was all man-made rules that oppress us.</div>
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falsely using His-name.</div>
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O Allah, have mercy on us, and help us, and show us ways to save us from the oppressor</div>
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*save some time and watch this video about the famous 'ayah' that usually used to oppress woman</div>
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1azySjz4edk</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-5978345778186469712016-03-09T10:12:00.001+08:002016-03-09T10:12:15.466+08:00Aim<div style="text-align: center;">
it has been a long time</div>
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i bid farewell to this blog</div>
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temporary farewell</div>
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bhaha</div>
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ntahlah maybe sebab banyak benda berlaku</div>
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laptop rosak</div>
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kerja tak habis</div>
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Zayd sakit</div>
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Amir plan nak smbg master but then tangguh</div>
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Then, last night we had serious discussion bout it</div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">apa yang kita nak cari sebenarnya dalam hidup ni ya?</span></div>
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kita nak amek master just because everyone is doing it? nak people regard us as educated? nak naik pangkat cepat?</div>
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if the uni is far, then we spend thousand hours, money, energy and life on road</div>
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or do we do it for the sake of getting more knowledge? to have better influence in society to preach Islam?</div>
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but if that so,</div>
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we should not neglect the responsibility to our children, wife, parents isn't? we should spent time playing, talking, visit, help them. Do we have the time and energy to do so? Will we do it with good emotion? or will we make them feel like they are burden?</div>
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if that so,</div>
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we should still able to pray in masjid, 5 times a day. we should able to go to majlis ilm. at least one a week. we should able to go out and meet our neighbour. at least twice a week.</div>
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hemmmmmmmm</div>
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memang la menuntut ilmu tu jihad</div>
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tapi</div>
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kalau hari tu dah lambat g kelas, sembahyang zuhur kocoh-kocoh, pandu laju gila membahayakan orang lain, pastuh excident, mati.</div>
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hemmmmmm. jihad x eh? </div>
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things to ponder and tajdid niat</div>
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al-mulk:2</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-41232058655959652642015-11-26T04:26:00.000+08:002015-11-26T04:26:00.230+08:00A little toy that brings joy<div style="text-align: center;">
Zayd has a little toy</div>
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A robocar poli car</div>
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which can transform into a robot</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">u know, how expensive toys nowaday,</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">we bought him the fake one RM15=.=</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">sorry Zayd, i'm a cheapskate. bhahah</span></div>
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so, the flaw is its parts are easily 'tertanggal' from its 'soket'</div>
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bila nak transform tu tak smooth langsung la kan</div>
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asyik tertanggal je</div>
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gerakkan sikit, tertanggal.</div>
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ganas sikit tertanggal.</div>
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but Zayd is really into that toy</div>
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so, dia akan main sepanjang mlm with it, </div>
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so bila tertanggal tu,</div>
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dia akan bawa semua parts kecik-kecik tu</div>
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and go to me</div>
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'ma,ma'</div>
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and request me to 'pasangkan semula'</div>
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in a night, it can be counted more than 10 attempts i will do that dirty job</div>
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:p</div>
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and it's the most 'bahagia' feeling i ever have</div>
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because i am his hero~</div>
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and i</div>
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will surely treasure this moment </div>
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when he grows up and needs me no more</div>
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to help him fixing his toy</div>
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:')</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-41395935313236603762015-11-04T11:10:00.002+08:002015-11-04T11:10:48.752+08:00kipidap ;p<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
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lately ni rasa penat sangat<o:p></o:p></div>
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hal kerja yang non-stop<o:p></o:p></div>
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yeah, hubby and i kerja tempat sama<o:p></o:p></div>
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so basically kitaorg mmg bincang dan bt kerja sampai nak
tido<o:p></o:p></div>
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i pity Zayd T.T<o:p></o:p></div>
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sapa kata kerja jd cg senang sangat, <o:p></o:p></div>
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*meh aku cucuk mata dia dgn garfu<o:p></o:p></div>
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hal mum, nenek, uncles<o:p></o:p></div>
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hal mistik<o:p></o:p></div>
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yang affect my body<o:p></o:p></div>
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i am not well<o:p></o:p></div>
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hubby exhausted and sick<o:p></o:p></div>
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entahlah<o:p></o:p></div>
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harini TERbaca blog my friend, Ukhti N<o:p></o:p></div>
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gosh, dah jauhnya i pergi<o:p></o:p></div>
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betul sebenarnya, masa kita single la, komitmen kita tak byk
sebenarnya<o:p></o:p></div>
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masa tu la sebenarnya nak all out utk Allah <o:p></o:p></div>
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untuk parents especially<o:p></o:p></div>
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bila dah kawin<o:p></o:p></div>
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ada anak ada suami ada komitmen<o:p></o:p></div>
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it's tiring sebab kadang-kadang kita rasa kita buat untuk
orang lain<o:p></o:p></div>
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sebenarnya silap<o:p></o:p></div>
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saat kita buat untuk orang lain dgn rasa sgt 'sacrifice' tu
la<o:p></o:p></div>
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sebenarnya bertuah sangat kalau kita niatkan <o:p></o:p></div>
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untuk 'Allah'<o:p></o:p></div>
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Kamu tidak berada di dalam satu keadaan dan tidak membaca
satu ayat dari Al-Quran dan kamu tidak mengerjakan suatu pekerjaan, melainkan
Kami menjadi saksi atasmu di waktu kamu melakukannya. Tidak luput dari
pengetahuan Tuhanmu biarpun sebesar zarah (atom) di bumi ataupun langit. Tidak
ada yang lebih kecil dan tidak (pula) yang lebih besar dari itu, melainkan
(semua tercatat) dalam kitab yang nyata (Luh Mahfuz). <o:p></o:p></div>
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(Surah Yunus: 61)<o:p></o:p></div>
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*thanks Ukhti N<o:p></o:p></div>
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kipidap,dongibap<o:p></o:p></div>
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ToT<o:p></o:p></div>
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*meleleh air mata MissLoke tau<o:p></o:p></div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-57366598274978077182015-10-01T14:12:00.001+08:002015-10-01T14:12:56.729+08:00abah<div style="text-align: center;">
i realized i didn't write anything</div>
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about abah</div>
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abah had passed away</div>
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suddenly </div>
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this January</div>
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____________________________</div>
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it was terrible and depressing moment for me</div>
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for most of us</div>
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especially for mum</div>
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it's kinda weird that i don't write it down</div>
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because yeah, </div>
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this is a sad blog,</div>
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mind you.</div>
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i realize too much drama behind it</div>
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perhaps i don't know how to write it down</div>
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perhaps i don't know where to begin</div>
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whatever it it</div>
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I swear by Allah's name,</div>
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Allah has given me the best 'Abah' i could ask for,</div>
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Abah has given me my 'haq' as his daughter</div>
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May whatever abah had done for me, </div>
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the efforts of guiding me, protect me, loving me, raising me up</div>
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May it become his protector from the hell fire</div>
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Ameen.</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-56394368195710341252015-08-24T13:03:00.002+08:002015-08-24T13:03:22.187+08:00mom's time-out<div style="text-align: center;">
being a first-time mommy</div>
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it's quiet handful for me</div>
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u know</div>
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the little one always needs you</div>
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in every way, in every side, in every minute</div>
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they cannot breath without you</div>
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don't take it negative</div>
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it's the way they show how much they love you</div>
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but</div>
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it's such a relief if you have a great company</div>
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who can offer help to take care of your loved one</div>
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when you need some time in bathroom, in kitchen, in toilet</div>
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it's even better if they allow you </div>
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some me-time</div>
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so you can catch up 'yourself'' back</div>
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the real you</div>
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and help to cast the grumpy and sorrow</div>
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you have inside you</div>
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o Allah, no wonder it's that high you place the value of a mother,</div>
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it's a big sacrifice that they made</div>
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for other human being</div>
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they sacrifice themselves</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-83722271998742516182015-08-03T14:42:00.002+08:002015-08-03T14:45:11.704+08:00The Language in HomeVerbal complaining has become our main medium in expressing dissatisfaction.<br />
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Especially when it comes to marriage, between wife and husband.</div>
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Don't bluff me by saying 'no, my marriage is just perfect'</div>
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Even Rasullulah and Aisha r.a sometimes is having dissatisfaction towards each other.</div>
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It is just the matter of how they deal with it. </div>
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They don't spread it to people outside the home</div>
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They don't shout at each other</div>
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They don't post and correct each other in facebook.</div>
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Masuk tahun ke-4 perkahwinan baru saya faham.</div>
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Kenapa benar-benar,</div>
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Kalau gaduh, perlu kita sorokkan dari pandangan anak-anak</div>
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Kalau berasa, harus benar jangan kita luahkan menyindir pada anak-anak</div>
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Kalau sedih, harus perlu titis air mata itu jangan negatif pada perspective anak-anak</div>
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Kerana perasan atau tidak</div>
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Ajaran itu adalah yang pertama dalam membentuk peribadi anak</div>
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Kita mengajar mereka tentang bagaimana menghadapi manusia</div>
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Expectation, conflict and solution</div>
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Jika yang kita ajarkan adalah dengan menghakimi manusia lain pada nilai kita (<i>value system</i>),</div>
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Nanti-nanti, maka dia jadi orang yang tidak boleh bertolak ansur dengan kelemahan</div>
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Nanti-nanti, yang sempurna hanya dia.</div>
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Maka jadinya apa dia nanti?</div>
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Jika yang kita ajarkan pada dia, kejamnya kita menghakimi orang yang dia rasa baik,</div>
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Nanti-nanti, bagaimana pula '<i>trust issue</i>'?</div>
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Nanti-nanti, percayanya pada yang tersayang tiada, hanya semua insan sekeliling yang kejam</div>
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Maka jadinya apa dia nanti?</div>
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Jika yang kita ajarkan pada dia, segalanya harus sempurna sebegini rupa,</div>
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Nanti-nanti, kalau dia berbuat kesalahan dalam pembelajaran dan kehidupan</div>
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Nanti-nanti, mungkin itu juga penyesalan terhadap wujudnya dia</div>
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Maka, jadinya apa dia nanti?</div>
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Jika yang kita ajarkan pada dia, complaining is the way to solve problem.</div>
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Biar benar.</div>
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Tepuk otak, dada dan iman kita.</div>
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Betul sudahkan kita ini? </div>
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Mungkin saja dia membesar jadi insan bijak yang cemerlang pada pelajaran.</div>
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Tetapi, mungkinkah dia..</div>
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Doktor yang saban hari membentak orang bawahan dengan kata kesat dan amarah?</div>
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Guru yang sering menempelak semua orang sekeliling dan memusnahkan harapan murid?</div>
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Arkitek yang mahu membunuh diri kerana gagal mendapatkan projek jutaan ringgit?</div>
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Ibu yang mendidik anak yang mengulangi 'cycle' yang sama?</div>
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Menambah generasi yang sama?</div>
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Yes. It is thinking about thinking.</div>
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It is subconscious matter.</div>
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It is serious matter.</div>
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We may not abuse our children physically but emotionally. Yes. It is still an abuse, mind you.</div>
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Mohon, Penderaan ini lebih sukar dikesan, tapi kesannya lebih dalam, lebih panjang. </div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-82445204002911282132015-07-21T13:46:00.000+08:002015-07-21T13:46:35.948+08:005th Syawal<div style="text-align: center;">
Today is Zayd's first birthday</div>
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in Hijrah's calendar </div>
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Alhamdulillah</div>
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Alhamdulillah</div>
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Alhamdulillah</div>
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Such a wonderful year</div>
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up and down</div>
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i mean as me, being a mother</div>
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Zayd?</div>
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such a wonderful and brilliant child</div>
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rarely get sick</div>
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satu usus dia get infected</div>
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(nothing serious, as he was active as a horse, neighhhh~)</div>
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second, demam masa tumbuh gigi</div>
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and all are His-blessing</div>
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i listened to Nouman Ali Khan's talk about child</div>
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Why did Yaakub be tested with not-so soleh children other than Yusuf and Bunyamin while Ibrahim got the most soleh piety sons, Ismail and Ishak, while Nuh got not-at-all soleh child?</div>
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the answer issss.....tengtengteng</div>
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IT IS SOLELY ALLAH'S GIFT AND BLESSING</div>
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so, what can i do to be guaranteed such soleh and solehah children?</div>
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NOTHING actually, other that just do your best, be the best muslim and muslimah, be the best parents, do whatever you need to do as a good parent, and the rest?</div>
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LEAVE IT TO ALLAH</div>
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so if the children do not come out as what we hope, pray and expected, at least we can answer to Allah that we have done our best.</div>
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O Allah, allahumma yassir wala tua'ssir</div>
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honestly, i am still nervous with this tough job as parent</div>
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Allah, terima kasih atas pinjamanMU setahun ini, </div>
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pinjamkan dia padaku lebih lama lagi ya Tuhan.</div>
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T.T</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-84090797033889751832015-02-27T07:17:00.002+08:002015-02-27T07:17:45.964+08:00being a working wife and mother<div style="text-align: center;">
i am always in doubt</div>
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whether</div>
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i am a good wife and mother</div>
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whether </div>
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am i a good employee?</div>
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..........................................</div>
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i realize it now</div>
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i need to be superwife and supermommy</div>
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who they expect me to be</div>
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top-class worker</div>
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top-class mummy</div>
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top-class wife</div>
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where tears and dissatisfaction should not be my choice</div>
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where i should swallow it everything</div>
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and succumb to the expectation</div>
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without any argument or struggle</div>
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:)</div>
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i will always pray to Allah</div>
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to keep me in patience and supply me with a lot of energy</div>
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supply me with a lot of inner peace, Allah</div>
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please, Allah,</div>
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.i am running out of it.</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-81609339014641636042015-01-22T12:18:00.002+08:002015-01-22T12:18:58.917+08:00my perfect dream<div style="text-align: center;">
to read </div>
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a novel of jody picoult</div>
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in a day</div>
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lay on bed all day long</div>
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with words dangling on my eyes</div>
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i know</div>
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it's only a dream, it can't be reality</div>
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maybe at least in next 20 years</div>
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don't worry, i don't mind</div>
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;P</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-28744250903400883362014-11-12T13:49:00.001+08:002014-11-12T14:02:19.094+08:00being a mum<div style="text-align: center;">
being a child</div>
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there were two things that really bothered me</div>
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first one,</div>
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mum was one of the best students of her era,</div>
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even being given chance to continue her study in Boston</div>
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she rejected it</div>
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and 'live' with us</div>
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i always wondered why mum didnt leave us and go study abroad</div>
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so i could show off to my friends that my mum is a director of something.</div>
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-.-?</div>
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growing up, </div>
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honestly, i still dissatisfied with the truth mum didn't continue her study.</div>
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it pissed me off as i thought she should chase her dream</div>
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second,</div>
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i ve always wondered why mum has more sickness rather than dad.</div>
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she has high cholestrol, she has high blood pressure. she has problem with her bone. she has gastric. </div>
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and dad was only diagnosed with high blood pressure.</div>
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=.=???</div>
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just being a mum</div>
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i got the answers</div>
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all in one shot</div>
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a mother will always sacrifice everything for her child</div>
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even it means her dream, her health and her life.</div>
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she never lets anyone to look down on along<br />
she supports angah to continue her study in Korea</div>
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she lets kakya become a doctor<br />
she allows kak fadil to dream about her phD<br />
she gives me the chance to study abroad.<br />
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mum sacrifices her dream<br />
just for us to dream and achieve it.<br />
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mum hardly chewed her meals properly<br />
as she was busy protecting her little cheeky naughty children<br />
mum breastfed us as long as she could<br />
that the calcium in her body was deteriorating<br />
sometimes, mum didn't eat for the whole day<br />
being a working lady and a mum with 6 kids<br />
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my mum sacrifices her health<br />
just for us to live healthily and benefits it.<br />
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T.T</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-73366920871042433952014-09-24T11:59:00.000+08:002014-09-24T11:59:18.252+08:00Zayd<div style="text-align: center;">
Alhamdulillah </div>
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setiap benda yang ada dalam hidup</div>
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adalah nikmat</div>
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mungkin kadang saya lupa</div>
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selama 24 tahun membesar</div>
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saya selalu lupa apa yg sy punya adalah belas ihsan Allah</div>
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ZAYD</div>
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adalah nikmat</div>
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seringkali saat saya tgk dia</div>
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sy teringat, ni cuma pinjaman</div>
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jadi Allah pinjamkan dia sedikit lama utk sy</div>
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seringkali </div>
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sy urut tangan dan kaki dia</div>
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sy usap dahi dan kepalanya</div>
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sy geletek perutnya</div>
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sy tahu semua ini belas ihsan nya</div>
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cukup sifatnya Zayd</div>
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sihat walafiatnya Zayd</div>
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cergasnya Zayd</div>
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sempurnanya organ-organ Zayd</div>
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semua ni adalah belas ihsanNya</div>
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sebab kalau Dia mahu yang sebaliknya</div>
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'kun fayakun'</div>
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dan jika Dia mahu Zayd pergi dulu dari saya</div>
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maka nanti sy kena redha</div>
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jika nanti abang pergi dulu dari saya</div>
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saya kena tabah jaga Zayd</div>
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maka sekarang adalah masanya</div>
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masa yang ada utk lakukan yang terbaik</div>
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walau penat dan lelah</div>
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walau amarah dan cungap</div>
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Al.An'am: 60</div>
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"Dan Dialah yang menidurkan kamu pada malam hari dan Dia mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan pada siang hari. Kemudian Dia membangunkan kamu pada siang hari untuk disempurnakan umurmu yang telah ditetapkan. Kemudian kepadaNya tempat kamu kembali, lalu Dia memberitahukan kepadamu apa yang kamu kerjakan."</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-62090474611773887632014-08-07T21:39:00.001+08:002014-08-07T21:39:42.286+08:00alhamdulillahhhh<div style="text-align: center;">
alhamdulillah</div>
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atas segaaaaaaalaaaaaa nikmat yg diberikann</div>
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:) </div>
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chapter 1.</div>
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pengalaman mengandung dalam minit terakhir</div>
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i can't remember it anymore.</div>
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i cuma igt petang tu, rs bosan amat duk rumah</div>
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so ask hubby jom g jalan kat kompleks sukan</div>
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hubby on, blh practise breathing katanya</div>
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so, we had about 2 rounds walking on the track</div>
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sambil borak macam2. hehehe.</div>
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then duduk sambil hubby bt fitness i did my breathing technique</div>
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then hubby ajak g cr air zamzam</div>
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nak bt air selusuh dia bacakan sendiri</div>
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tapi x dpt, so we went back home</div>
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chapter 2.</div>
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delivering</div>
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hahha, balik rumah nak mandi sebab dh nak maghrib</div>
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ohh okay, turun darah</div>
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so told hubby bout it, hubby told my mil, hubby g mandi solat</div>
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i mandi siap2, then had milo and a biscuit</div>
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then we called dr.Rosy</div>
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Dr.Rosy suh dtg kpj g check kt tgkat dua.</div>
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pergi sana with my mil </div>
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jumpa nurse, nurse check, ckp dh bukaan 2 cm</div>
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so while waited for Dr,Rosy, i asked hubby utk anta mil blik dlu kesian</div>
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mil and hubby and me x dinner lagi</div>
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so hubby bancuh milk for me and asked me to eat kurma jap</div>
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doc asked hubby to buy some food for me and i requested nasi paprik</div>
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bhahahha sempat lagi tu.</div>
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berkelilinglah hubby mencr nasi paprik</div>
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i plak g layan sakit yg makin mendtg tp okay lagi</div>
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x igt kul bpe tp dh lewat jgak bru hubby dpt ns paprik</div>
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he tried to fed me</div>
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tp sakit tu dh makin kerap</div>
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so bila tgh okay</div>
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'cepat2 makan sesuap dua x sakit ni'</div>
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dalam hati kalau ad kicap best gak ns paprik ni</div>
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bhahaha</div>
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okay then dr.rosy smpi dlm pkul 10</div>
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pecahkan air ketuban</div>
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bermulalah kesakitan nikmat Allah</div>
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sampai tahap i asyk tanya nurse</div>
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'mmg sakit dia mcm ni eh?'</div>
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rsnya 2 3 kali gak asyk ty, mesti nurse tu fed up ;p</div>
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hubby sgt concern and urut my back sebab sakit pinggang dia..</div>
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Allah je yg tauuuuu</div>
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then, i mcm dh lalok sakit sgt,</div>
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nurse wanted to give me injection yg blh bt i tdo jap</div>
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x hilang sakit tu pun okay~</div>
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i mmg lalok, tp blh sedar sakit tu, dh blh intip hubby pgang fon. ;)</div>
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then at a moment i ckp kt nurse, i x tahan, </div>
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sakit sgt, blh teran x?</div>
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dalam hati, i just want to end it</div>
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then nurse seluk, it was 8 cm</div>
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wahhhhh</div>
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alhamdulillah</div>
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then startlah </div>
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diaorg psg side kaki kat atas tu</div>
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ask me to hold tepi katil</div>
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walaupun hubby siap offer tgn dia lg</div>
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tp i dh sakit sgt, and i dont want to hurt him</div>
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thennn</div>
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i try la teran mcm kt utube yg i dh lama tgk tu</div>
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hahha</div>
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nurse ckp good dh nampak rmbut, </div>
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but i a bit failed nak tahan bpe lama</div>
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sebab mcm x tahu and short breath</div>
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maybe kalau nurse tu ckp tarik nafas teran kira sampai 10 baru lepas*</div>
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i blh faham kot, hahha x pelah hal dh lepas</div>
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tp i kna potong </div>
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T.T</div>
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baru berangan x nak ptong</div>
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hubby ckp maybe sbnrnya blh kalau i blh tahan breath lama lagi cuz mmg dh nak kluar sgt</div>
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but maybe doc worry baby akan masuk blik</div>
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so she cut me</div>
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heheee</div>
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alhamdulillah</div>
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he was born</div>
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2.70kg</div>
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alhamdulillah</div>
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segala pujian bagi Allah</div>
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2.41 pagi</div>
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i am blessed</div>
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to have a wonderful hubby, patiently encouraged me throughout the experience, MIL yg sntiasa doakan i,</div>
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my mum yg x ptus2 bg msg semangat, i am blessed by His-rahmat.</div>
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suasana bersalin yg tiptop, my aurat yg terjaga dr lelaki, kesakitan yang tidak terlalu lama (10mlm-2.41pg)</div>
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nikmat Allah yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?</div>
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sebenarnya i dh x igt sakit bersalin tu, cuma i tau sakit sgt, sakit bdn pas bersalin, sakit tmpat jahit, sakit jga anak sakit, sakit mental dan emosi</div>
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:)</div>
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mungkin sebab tu rahsia Allah bg kt wanita, to forget, so they can bear more ummah</div>
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okay maybe another 4 years T.T</div>
'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-53242717856638589932014-06-29T11:19:00.000+08:002014-06-29T11:19:05.448+08:00male or female<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">this little post is going to show the immaturity of myself</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">and i hope whoever read it can suspend your judgement</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">and just take it lightly as it's just another people's life and experience</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">and reflect how it can help us to make this world a better place for others.</span></div>
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<b>When doctor scanned my tummy and announced it was a boy</b></div>
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<b> i was not really excited</b></div>
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<b>i was just okay and chilled</b></div>
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<b>but my heart was not excited and i felt guilty to this little fella</b></div>
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<b>until there was a night</b></div>
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<b>i had a nightmare</b></div>
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<b>truly a nightmare</b></div>
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<b>my boy has turned to be my only bro, let me name it Bro H</b></div>
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<b>Bro H, i would not spend my energy, never and ever,</b></div>
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<b>to type his bad characters and bad thingssssss he has done to mum and us</b></div>
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<b> i didnt have wonderful male figures in my family</b></div>
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<b>except my father,</b></div>
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<b>especially not my only brother,</b></div>
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<b>nor my uncles</b></div>
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<b>not my brothers-in-law</b></div>
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<b>not my cousins</b></div>
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<b>the percentage of meeting good man in my family sounds like 1/100</b></div>
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<b>my families are filled by super woman and girls</b></div>
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<b>my mum, my sisters, my grandmother even those little girlish cheeky fellas</b></div>
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<b>izzah, my first niece of kakngah,</b></div>
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<b>can take care of her 5 sisters and brothers,</b></div>
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<b>a person who you can always rely in taking care small creatures patiently</b></div>
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<b>she is the backbone of her mother's emotional support :)</b></div>
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<b>mawar, my niece of kak fadil, at the age of 3, </b></div>
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<b>she already can help her mum moping, and do simple house chores.</b></div>
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<b>she truly cares of my sister's feeling and her new sister :)</b></div>
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<b>it was my mother who took my report cards till i finish my secondary school</b></div>
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<b>it was my sister who help me doing my homework late night</b></div>
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<b>it was my sister who buy me my first jeans</b></div>
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<b>the list goes on</b></div>
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<b>until i find my husband and his family</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who likes helping me washing dishes and laundry</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who always asking to buy homey things to make my work easier at home</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who always asking me what i need</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who is sensitive enough to remember all important dates of our marriage</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who stops at every fruit stall in unknown little 'pekan' to find fruit his mother wish to</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who tries to bring his mother to eat outside just to ease her burden of cooking</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who never forgets to bring 'buah tangan' whenever we come back to our mothers' homes</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who make sure his house is always tidy</b></div>
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<b>and at the late of night, he arranges the plates and wash the laundry at the age over 70</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who can take care of his 3 children when his wife is away for outstation</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who is not really mind about money and keen to treat his family anything they need and want</b></div>
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<b>i find a man who doesn't forget his previous children even after he split up</b></div>
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<b>i find these men in my husband's families</b></div>
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<b>which i could not find in my family</b></div>
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<b>i should not generalize</b></div>
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<b>a man is always like that</b></div>
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<b>as same goes to women</b></div>
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<b> there are men always a bad and good women</b></div>
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<b>there are always bad and good men</b></div>
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<b>and hubby always says to me</b></div>
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<b>'baguslah the first is a boy, ada orang blh jaga iqa kalau abg x da nt</b></div>
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<b>syurga dia bawah kaki iqa, tanggungjawab dia pada iqa'</b></div>
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<b>T.T</b></div>
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<b>i always pray, whatever characters that good in you abang,</b></div>
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<b>may Allah bless you and retain it until the last breath</b></div>
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<b>and </b></div>
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<b>i pray whatever good in me, Allah will retain it inside me</b></div>
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<b>and make you and our children happy with me</b></div>
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<b>and i pray</b></div>
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<b>our children get the best from both of us</b></div>
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<b>and learn from our weaknesses and mistakes</b></div>
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<b>and i find out moulding someone to be a better person</b></div>
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<b>will always makes this world a better place for others to live in</b></div>
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<b>because we all make changes and differences to our world</b></div>
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<b>no wonder</b></div>
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<b>'menegakkan islam'</b></div>
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<b>will always start within ourselves</b></div>
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#spreadthepositivevibration</div>
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'atiq achmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05001833628985496864noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4209427898391750268.post-32672804326899361842014-06-15T13:19:00.001+08:002014-06-15T13:19:16.013+08:00my little baby<div style="text-align: center;">
Alhamdulillah</div>
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atas segala nikmat yang Tuhan kurniakan</div>
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sesungguhnya hanya Dia yang berkuasa</div>
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menentukan segalanya di bumi ini</div>
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baby</div>
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it is only about a month that you will be in this world</div>
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full of tribulation and challenge</div>
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mummy has always prayed for you</div>
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may whatever happen, Allah will guide you and flourish you with His-taufeeq and hidayah</div>
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I always pray,</div>
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if you do any mistake,</div>
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you will realize it as soon as possible and repent</div>
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make a u-turn to our God</div>
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He is the most forgiving</div>
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mummy will always love you</div>
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and yeah, i still don't have any name for you</div>
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'umar and umayr are not available</div>
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as daddy's close cousins and friends all got babies with that name</div>
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fateh is also not available </div>
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as there is a kid who is close to daddy's family has the name</div>
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what are left are only two</div>
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zayd</div>
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or </div>
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yasir</div>
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choose baby choose</div>
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daddy doesn't want fancy name pardon you, </div>
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nt dia ckp salah type nama gaji lambat masuk mcm mama T.T</div>
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