patience

it has been quiet a while

i mean our marriage

hay, doesn't mean it feels ages for me

but people out there have started thinking or assuming

that we should have a child by now

ummm. let me do the thinking,

a minute

when people were joking bout me and keep teasing bout it,

i admitted that i still could laugh and 'enjoyed' the teasing together with them

but in these few days, 

when it became chronic

i startled and could only return the soft-gooey smile 

which was filled with different feelings in a blink

and i poured that to hubby

and he said

"i'm not sad or feel anything when people asking that,

it's just the matter of Allah's rezqi

but if that does make u sad, it saddens me too" 

and he stopped. for quiet a time. 

i know he does really mean it

 so i do stop the thinking too. the negative one.

i bet his thought is the only thing that i care enough

other than My Allah

;)

i know Allah has decided the best journey for me to be fully-prepared when receiving that little tiny caliph

and that..

.is the test of patience.

;)

wind and love

Love is like wind

It comes and goes with the seasons

In hot day, we demand it like crazy

In cold day, we curse it deep inside

Just remember this

you want it or not,

it is always, always around us

it is just the matter of 'when'

God decided the best time

for it to come 

WE HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT

our hearts are not ours

so

CHERISH it when it's there

BE PATIENT when it isn't

#pray hard to Allah, may He protect our hearts for things that shouldn't come in