pasar malam

aku tahu. pasar malam atas ni bukan pasar malam kt Malaysia. aku cuma nak gambarkan perasaan aku semalam. maaf aku mmg pemalas bab ambil gambar random sekarang. :)

cuba bayangkan. dalam penuh-penuh-sesak pasar malam. ada 2 orang perempuan. seorang pegang tabung, seorang pegang poster and pamplet. jalan sampai hujung, pusing, jalan lagi smpai hujung. pusing. bagi pamplet, senyum-senyum. usha-usha minta duit. sambil jerit 

"mai, mai beli lampu tuk Palestin. sekupang boleh, dua kupang pon boleh. mai, mai derma!"

 tapi budak2 perempuan tu bukan berdua sahaja, raaamaaaaiiii lagi budak-budak perempuan-perempuan yg datang membantu. mahu meminta manusia agar celik mata isu Palestin. untuk sama-sama membantu saudara kita. dan aku belajar tentang sesuatu semalam.

the feeling and sense of rejection. i felt tremendously shy and embarrass to be honest to do it. I was not the one who could easily shout as my friend (May Allah bless her as she shouted for good cause), so it was a big deal for me to do it. and the rejection from the people had added up to it. blurrr. frustrated. feeling ignored. burden. GO AWAAAAYYY-feeling that might stir in everyone's mind had caused me a great humiliation. but then. i was paused, how about the peminta sedekah yg biasa kita tgk tepi-tepi jalan? yg org suka buat muka akan kehadirannya? apa perasaan Palestinian? when the world ignores their helpless voice and shout??? 

at least, i could say this thing would end in just a few minute, but for those people, will they know when it will end? will they be able to buy food in the next minute? will they alive after a second? 

betol.

andai anda mahu bersyukur, belajarlah melihat orang yg kurang dari anda. belajarlah untuk duduk bersama mereka dan merasa kepayahan mereka. maka anda akan berasa beruntung dengan apa yang anda punyai.

and just a light reminder for myself, just in case i refuse to this kind of job next time, 

do you know 'atiqah?

tahukah kamu orang yg mendustakan agama?

maka, itulah orang yang mengherdik anak yatim

dan tidak mendorong memberi makan orang miskin,

maka celakalah orang yg solat,

orang-orang yg lalai terhadap salatnya,

yang berbuat riya',

dan enggan memberikan bantuan.

 (al-Ma'un: 1-7)

that was the most longest of one hour i ever spent 

=.=

.May Allah forgive me for my wrong-doings and keep remind me for my illiterateness of reading Your signs.

:http://www.aqsasyarif.org.my/2012/05/projek-one-family-one-lamp/