there are a lot of times i feel i fail as a human being
particularly as a muslim
this heart
is always betraying me
i feel hurt for things that do not harm
i feel stupid for just facing the reality
i feel defeated with the nature's work
i feel tremendously lazy to do my responsibilities
i feel annoy to face and deal with human
i feel wanting to just terribly punch or hurt myself
there are too much times where i could not consider myself as a normal people
i ask Allah to really help me
because i really know it is all just a FEELING
played by the devil
to manipulate and destroy me
O Rabb, You say that I can ask You to change my heart when i do not feel anything while performing my solah, reciting Al-Quran or just reflecting myself. O ALLAH, PLEASE CHANGE IT RIGHT NOW. i need such a help, guide me, bless me.
