professional development

this is supposed to be written yesterday, a day before the practicum start. but never mind, as long as the work done ;p

This practicum is the first and last for us, the students of B.Ed (TESOL-Macquarie) program and for sure, I am terrified and overwhelmed at the same time. My mind lingers with too many questions which make me dizzy where to begin. However, some most prominent is asking myself of what good teacher is, the behaviour of a teacher, the judgement every teacher made in their teaching, the rationale thinking lies behind every act, and the ultimate question is, how? how? how? how can we do that? am I able to be like that? As the worry gets me nothing, I tried to search for clues and information about the school I get and talking to more experiential people in this field for some tips and advise.


My school, XXX, is a boy-school where most of trainee teachers who went there claimed the students were naughty and hard to be controlled. They asked me to be as vigilant as I could, to avoid any problem arises. Some also said that the headmaster was quite fierce and tough. The others said the teachers were not really helpful. Honestly I am extremely scared to face all of these, but it is not fair to judge them without even knowing them and just listen to Tom, Dick and Harry's saying. So, I decided to suspend my judgement, prepare myself to face any situation and to expect for the worst.


I read through few notes and keep my mind positive towards this teaching experience. I recall all of super-enthusiastic teachers and lecturers and remind myself of each advise they gave me. Jean Brick, one of my lecturer there, who does always show her utmost positive attitude and high interest in her teaching, caused us to feel and treasure such a condusive and lovable environment for learning. Mdm. Mariah, the one that shares her inspiring stories of teaching the young hearts and teach us to see things and hurtful memory from different angle and perspective of life. I believe that these people are the one who made and mould human being. and I, simply want to be one of those. 


I pray hard to God to enlighten my heart and my students' heart to keep learning and improving. To help us keep moving and help each other. To appreciate and love one another. To allow me to fulfil my duty as what the generation needs. God, show me the way, and I promise to myself to work hard as best as I could. Insya-Allah.