angan2 mak jenin : =p!

bc bl0g sese0rg td, it grabs my attention. teringat 3 bende yang aku memang nak sangat buat dalam kehidupan ni. tapi akhirnya, aku sendiri juga yang menguburkan cita2 sendiri. adeh~

x de mase. peluang x dtg. kurang kesedaran. kekangan masalah. ntah ape2 lglah alasan aku. hendak seribu daya x hendak seribu dalih.

1) aku teringin nk mas0k debat bm cuz 4 english i dun hav dat confidence yet. i think my bm quiet impressive cuz

ma rumate penah kate (tambh tolak kebenarannye) "konye bm kan seyes patriotik dan baku (which means hebat..kot). aku rase ko salah msk course la..". mekasih rumate, sy anggapnye sbgai pujian. =p

sum0ne ever say 2 my fren:
"x sangka ade gak bdk yg berbakat kt cohort ko ni lg ek?" <--refer 2 me cuz bru pas jd mc kt institut assembly. (name dirhsiekn cuz ak tak0t die x igt die kte g2...nt malu..uhu~)

ade gak kwn aku yg rajin ajak aku g mas0k kelab debat di0rg, tp cuz mase 2 ak ade masalh2 yg x dpt dielakkan s0 lame2..x menjadi. thanks 4 t invitati0n n0ni!!

2) damn hell~(ni bukan mencarut, hanya expressi n0rmal dlm eng yg bermaksud keterlaluan). kelas melukis. i dream of it since i was a kid. skrg dh over bes0...

im quite talented in it, i l0ve art s0 much! maybe i am born wif dis talent--to draw.

mase kecik2, my mum always promised 2 sent me 2 learn drawing c0mics or p0tret but at t end x dpt gak..(ade bende yg x dpt dielakkan kt dunia ni)

at this stage, i wish i can enter one or s0me drawing class when im in sydney nex year. really h0pe s0!!

3) penulisan kreatif. cerpen or any kind of dis field.

when i was in my girl's sch0ol in f.1 my bm teacher had told and ch0se me 2 enter pertandingan menulis esei peringkat daerah. she was needed 2 ch0ose 1 representative from our scho0l..uhu..mesti die trust my ability so much until she said 'konfem blh menang' but when i m0ved from dat sch0ol at dat crucial time she was frustrated wif me.really. my frens told me she was asking 4 me after i moved. (s0 s0rry teacher!)..i was s0o h0me sick at dat time cuz of dat *tutt* senior yg asek membuli je kejenyer!

i juz send most of my cerpens to sch0ol's magazines...heish. my mum said i shud b more brave and hav high self confidence but it was me at th0se time.



terlalu byk lagi peristiwa2 yang membuat aku percaya aku ada bakat dalam bidang2 yang berkenaan, bezanya tika 2, i got no self-esteem dat say i shud try n0 matter wat. i was t0o afraid of l0sing. making me juz an ordinary cheap person.

may be it is t time of changing. a turning p0int. i need 2 dare 2 fail. i need 2 take risk. i shudn be a l0ser 'atiqah. it is time 2 change b4 anything becomes t0o late. LATE.

p/s: this colour is indicator of my private speech or monolog..=}