Effort

there was one night where we were doing the house chores. after the long day at school. i was ironing my baju kurung. he was folding clothes.

me: abang, one day, if i want to be a housewife. i will be one only if you continue your study or working
abroad tau..

abg: eah? why?

me: yela...like when we were there dulu. they had a lot of gadgets and machine and what-so-ever that made house chores were so easy. we had build-in oven, that one that two..blabla..being a housewife is a hard job. the work is endless. after one, there will be another twenty task waiting for you. non-stop. salute to those housewife tau.

abg: oh..ok. boleh je :)...tapi kan..nt you will have less pahala la? kan?

me: oh. yeah T.T okeh.

*note: Allah rewards us for every hardship and effort that we do, not only the accomplishment. orang yang pandai baca Quran, baca elok. dapat pahala. tapi org yg x pandai baca Quran, try baca, dapat double pahala. one for the deed. one for the hardship to do it. :)

ulang tahun pertama

Setahun pelayaran ini,

Belum cukup jauh kita di lautan,

Mungkin cuma di gigian pantai,

Belum cukup dalam sauh kita lepaskan,

Sejengkal cuma barangkali,

Belum cukup matang kita ini,

Membaca bintang dan deru angin,

Hanyut membawa layar yg kita bentangkan,

Illahi..

Menongkah lautan gelap, 

Penuh misteri tanpa hujung,

Kami mohon rahmah dan mawaddahMu,

Kami rayu taufik dan hidayahMu,

Kami pohon hikmah dan santun ilmu,

Moga kami kan tepat ke destinasi.

Oh Ya Rabbi!

Redhakanlah kami

Lindungilah kami

Berkatilah kami

Dan seluruh keturunan kami.

Ameeen. Salam syg ulang tahun pertama :)

penternak lemak :D

it has been some time i did not visit this blog

perhaps i am too busy with my life

as a wife

as a daughter-in-law

as a 'penganggur-terhormat'

terlalu busy tanam anggur lemak, yg tak mampu dituai hasilnya

yeah, i'm become chubbier than what u can imagine

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and i put some effort in decreasing the percentage of my fat

by finding job

please. please. i really want that job. jd cg sekolah rendah kt sebuah sekolah agama swasta.

pray for me please

*ppd seremban penuh :( x blh msk skolah kerajaan

terrible human being

there are a lot of times i feel i fail as a human being

particularly as a muslim

this heart

is always betraying me

i feel hurt for things that do not harm

i feel stupid for just facing the reality

i feel defeated with the nature's work

i feel tremendously lazy to do my responsibilities

i feel annoy to face and deal with human

i feel wanting to just terribly punch or hurt myself 

there are too much times where i could not consider myself as a normal people

i ask Allah to really help me

because i really know it is all just a FEELING

played by the devil

to manipulate and destroy me

O Rabb, You say that I can ask You to change my heart when i do not feel anything while performing my solah, reciting Al-Quran or just reflecting myself. O ALLAH, PLEASE CHANGE IT RIGHT NOW. i need such a help, guide me, bless me.

baitul warithian's ramadhan

The Ramadhan this year will end in just a few days

and I, am still busy 'practicum-ing'

=.=' sigh

.I miss baitul warithian.

.I miss being there.

Ramadhan = baitul warithian's most glamorous, cherished and precious moments

Ramadhan bersama mereka, 2 tahun menikmati manisnya ibadah bersama, usai solat terawikh kadang-kadang kita duduk menyantuni isi hati, menyantapi pengisian rohani, tiap solat kita mengejar masa menyelit untuk bersama, tadarus di dalam ruang kekangan masa, kadang-kadang lewat malam kita bangun, mengejut yang lain untuk mengejar syurga-Nya.

Ada waktu, buka kita hanya teguk air di perjalanan pulang kelas, ada peluang, kita  bersyukur nikmat kebab di musolla, ada ruang, kita gembira bersama di rumah, memasak dan berbuka, dengan apa adanya yg kita punya. Ada tika, kita melangkah pulang malam, bertanya pada Illahi, rahmat yang manakah milik kita bulan ini?

Terima kasih, cuma itu yang mampu aku ucapkan. kalian benar-benar mengajar aku seribu hikmah. bahawa Ramadhan itu tentang isinya, bukan tentang bulan atau pengakhir saja. Ramadhan itu tentang bersaing. dengan diri dan nafsu, untuk menjadi yg terbaik bt Illahi.

Kalian, doakan aku moga tsabat. doakan aku moga kuat. moga hilangnya kalian nt, tidak bererti hilangnya manis iman dalan jiwa ini. benar. kalian yang terindah buat diri.

salam sayang, lillahita'ala.

buat Nurul 'Atiqah, Norakmar Syazni, Syamim, Razaini, Hanisa, Nurizwah

moga Allah kan pertemukan kita dengan insan-insan yang lebih menyintai-Nya kelak.

1st Ramadhan

today is my first Ramadhan with hubby

my first Ramadhan as a wife

:)

and i am not really well actually

melepek kat katil dr mlm td

and hubby did almost everything

he sahur by himself as I was really incapable to wake up

he washed and hanged the clothes sebanyak 2 baldi besau

T.T

O Allah, May you bless him and love him, guide him and care for him

as much as he tries to love and comfort me

he has tried to be the best husband as Rasulullah asked

and i solely hope i can become more solehah for him

=)

thinking

when I went to this class of mine this morning and started teaching literature

"Anansi and the Turtle"

when I asked them

"If you were the Turtle in that story, what would you do? Just imagine.."

and I found all the students were flipping through the textbook

-.-

when I wrote on the blackboard

"People who do not do their work and keep talking"

and listed few names

a student raised his hand and asked me

"Teacher, copy that eh?"

-.-''

perhaps, teaching based on textbook BLINDLY without knowing our students does harm our generation

and I hope I won't be the one who relies solely on that, in future

thinking how can I help them to do some thinking

WORK HARD PRAY HARD

insyaAllah