wind and love

Love is like wind

It comes and goes with the seasons

In hot day, we demand it like crazy

In cold day, we curse it deep inside

Just remember this

you want it or not,

it is always, always around us

it is just the matter of 'when'

God decided the best time

for it to come 

WE HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT

our hearts are not ours

so

CHERISH it when it's there

BE PATIENT when it isn't

#pray hard to Allah, may He protect our hearts for things that shouldn't come in

Places

A few days ago,

I saw a fb status one of my friends

Wow! She is in Sydney, having good time with her husband.

I was so jealous of her and told hubby

"syoknya if we can go for holiday in Sydney kan? How lucky she is! I wish we can go to Australia again"

then hubby smiled at me. 

"I think you are luckier than her."

eh? why? I did not go to Sydney. Oh My Dear Sydney.

"You went to Makkah and Madinah. You were His special guest. isn't? Where are the most wonderful places other than that?"

Hubby.

 never ever once fail to make me feeling grateful.

with his just relaxed face. :p

TEMPER

i easily lose my temper whenever i enter these two classes.

duh *-,-

my words may kill all the innocent hearts

(if there is ANY in those classes *nada berbaur sinis)

seeeeee!~~~ i'm more than cynical now. uhhhh. 

how i hated my cynical teacher previously, i have turned to be one now

and hubby *which always being more patient than me* were also having the same prob.

 =.=' & -.-''''

then, i realized
everytime

i did some reading and listening to the tarbiyyah thingy and songs

before i entered the class

i became calmer and less madness had occurred

or else

i just bite my tongue

*REALLY HARD

Effort

there was one night where we were doing the house chores. after the long day at school. i was ironing my baju kurung. he was folding clothes.

me: abang, one day, if i want to be a housewife. i will be one only if you continue your study or working
abroad tau..

abg: eah? why?

me: yela...like when we were there dulu. they had a lot of gadgets and machine and what-so-ever that made house chores were so easy. we had build-in oven, that one that two..blabla..being a housewife is a hard job. the work is endless. after one, there will be another twenty task waiting for you. non-stop. salute to those housewife tau.

abg: oh..ok. boleh je :)...tapi kan..nt you will have less pahala la? kan?

me: oh. yeah T.T okeh.

*note: Allah rewards us for every hardship and effort that we do, not only the accomplishment. orang yang pandai baca Quran, baca elok. dapat pahala. tapi org yg x pandai baca Quran, try baca, dapat double pahala. one for the deed. one for the hardship to do it. :)

ulang tahun pertama

Setahun pelayaran ini,

Belum cukup jauh kita di lautan,

Mungkin cuma di gigian pantai,

Belum cukup dalam sauh kita lepaskan,

Sejengkal cuma barangkali,

Belum cukup matang kita ini,

Membaca bintang dan deru angin,

Hanyut membawa layar yg kita bentangkan,

Illahi..

Menongkah lautan gelap, 

Penuh misteri tanpa hujung,

Kami mohon rahmah dan mawaddahMu,

Kami rayu taufik dan hidayahMu,

Kami pohon hikmah dan santun ilmu,

Moga kami kan tepat ke destinasi.

Oh Ya Rabbi!

Redhakanlah kami

Lindungilah kami

Berkatilah kami

Dan seluruh keturunan kami.

Ameeen. Salam syg ulang tahun pertama :)

penternak lemak :D

it has been some time i did not visit this blog

perhaps i am too busy with my life

as a wife

as a daughter-in-law

as a 'penganggur-terhormat'

terlalu busy tanam anggur lemak, yg tak mampu dituai hasilnya

yeah, i'm become chubbier than what u can imagine

...

.......

.........

and i put some effort in decreasing the percentage of my fat

by finding job

please. please. i really want that job. jd cg sekolah rendah kt sebuah sekolah agama swasta.

pray for me please

*ppd seremban penuh :( x blh msk skolah kerajaan

terrible human being

there are a lot of times i feel i fail as a human being

particularly as a muslim

this heart

is always betraying me

i feel hurt for things that do not harm

i feel stupid for just facing the reality

i feel defeated with the nature's work

i feel tremendously lazy to do my responsibilities

i feel annoy to face and deal with human

i feel wanting to just terribly punch or hurt myself 

there are too much times where i could not consider myself as a normal people

i ask Allah to really help me

because i really know it is all just a FEELING

played by the devil

to manipulate and destroy me

O Rabb, You say that I can ask You to change my heart when i do not feel anything while performing my solah, reciting Al-Quran or just reflecting myself. O ALLAH, PLEASE CHANGE IT RIGHT NOW. i need such a help, guide me, bless me.