weird dream

last night, i had a weird dream.

not scary one neither tears-all-over kind

it was weird, to meet someone from my cohort in secondary school setting

dreams should be in its places

should not be scattered

and yeah, she was not one of my league

and she's a year older than me

but in that dream, she was one year younger from me

one thing i can't forget, she said to me

"you know, i am trying to change so hard. i tried. will try again"

perhaps i ignore her too much back days,

i left her helpless

i didn't behave like a muslim sister to her

i had a big slap last night

scared like hell

oh, forgive me dear, forgive me Allah

.should be more attentive to ummah.

alhamdulillah,

it has been 74 days

and hoped to be forever till Jannah

:)

:)

Biarkan dia menjadi 'Umar

untuk ketegasannya mempertahankan agama

Relakan dia menjadi Fatih

agar dia mampu menjadi sebaik-baik jundi-Allah

Redhakan namanya Zayd

mohon agar dia juga menjadi kesayangan Tuhan dan RasulNya

Raikan dia bernama Safiyyah

atas ketabahan dia menjadi 'asing' dalam dunia ini

Doakan jiwanya Aisyah

buat kekentalannya menegakkan kebenaran Illahi

Rindukan dia bernama Maryam

atas kesolehan yang menutupi ruang lingkup hatinya

Doakan mereka begitu :)

ameen. insyaAllah.

buat al-hubb

Ya Allah

Jika kau jadikan dia air,

Maka jadikanlah aku manusia.

Agar hilangnya dia,

Membuat jiwaku resah menunggu.

Ya Rabb

Jika kau takdirkannya udara

Hidupkan aku sebagai manusia

Kerna tanpa ia

Tumpaslah kudrat nafasku

Ya Illahi,

Jika ketentuanMU padanya laut

Jadikanlah aku manusia

Kerna dengannya

Aku terbuai dgn tenang

Ya Tuhan

Jadikan dia antara makhluk-makhlukMu

yg sering merinduiMu

yg sering menginginkanMu

sering-sering kepingin berjuang untukMu

kerna aku

mahu jadi insan yang tak pernah jemu merinduinya

saban ketika juga waktu.

-wifey ^.^-

lari tajuk

see what's in the red circle?

yes! indeed! a reminder, for me and you. us

"look after what makes spouse happy and Allah gives you happiness in return"

and do read this verse frequently

al-furqan:74

oh, i miss this marriage course that i took when i was in ozy. it is so 'aliiveeee'! ;D

no sleepy-head stage 1.

yes. i miss everything there :}

ek? this is a post with 2 contents and feelings though ;p

insyaAllah

i just want to dance in the darkness

with music in my ears

i just want tu run away miles

with infinity energy engulfing my legs

i just want to scream

loud out loud through my trachea

i want to say i love u mommy

but nothing goes out

it is on Allah i lay everything. He knows what best and not. He knows how weak i am. He knows this little fragile heart. He knows so much. He knows everything.

HE SURELY KNOWS WHAT IS THE BEST FOR MUM

.insyaAllah.

Hold HIS hand 'atiqah. Hold HIS, mum.

we will be strong together

a hopeful dream

is not only about yourself

:)