happy

assalamualaikum!!!

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.i'm pretty happy for this week.

i did my micro teaching lesson and i learn new thing.

i did meet someone and establish new relationship.

i did present something 'heavy' and hold the responsibility.

i did my reflection and finish my 35% EDUC393 assignment.

i pray for the best. may Allah keep blessing me. ;)

a mistake

assalamualaikum!

i did a mistake today...
and i can't correct it because its my own decision. and it relates to human's feelings and hopes.

i did a mistake today...
and hurt someone's feeling so deeeply.

i did a mistake today...
and it might ruin the whole life of that peson.

i did a mistake today...
and i start thinking i start taking person's love and effort for granted without realizing it.

i did a mistake today...
and i start wondering why im always seeking the love of person whom i dont know willing to love me and replace that with total care given person loving me most.

i did a mistake today...
and asking.

will that person forgive me and treat me the same way as the heart did before?
if accidently someone comes acrross my blog, i want to say:

'i'm truly sorry. i won't do it again in future'

new sem~ekekeeke~

assalamualaikum!!
hey2! i just came back from Malaysia about a week ago~ i chose not to stay here eventhough Malaysia government only sent us for 2 years thats not the reason for me to get darker under the degree of 42 celcius or 107.6 Fahrenheit in Sydney..a big No..No..NO~

huhuhu, the orientation week has started, with juniors coming along, im standing again with new hope and targets, new do'a, new person~ehehehe, new aims i would say. I am a big girl now, or a big woman? I am an adult. 22 years of living and breathing. i need to prepare myself to bear huge responsibilities, to listen and hold the pressure with smile, to make this fantasy becomes real reality, insyaAllah!...i have a family to take care of..mak abah, my dearies and loved ones too..=)

im hoping this sem would be a blast for me. before im going back to Malaysia at the end of this year. let's start it with basmalah..

..bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

problem is my friend =)

.too many things happen in life that Allah has granted for me.

and i keep myself dumb by ignorence and anger. i try to ignore yet they fight me back. and i lost. i lost. i lost.

my head is spinning. with the assignments in row. my exam is just around the corner. with my family's matter. especially with my own progression as a human. a real-human. a muslimah.

i might give u bad perception of islam by not being so-friendly, by being so silent with the new ones, by being so-called selfish behavior through dull emotion potrayed in my face, by easily getting mad and not so organized. That's my weaknesses, dont blame it on religious i ve faith in, but blame me. incomplete puzzle.

my fragile heart. do strong. so believe Allah's promises. ujian adalah utk mentarbiyyah jiwa agar kuat. agar utuh dan gagah. agar suatu hari nanti kita kan jadi manusia hamba yg terbilang di mata Allah. insyaAllah.

problem is my friend. as long as Allah is on my side. i dont have reason to be sad. =)

amarah

baru tadi, ada sesuatu megusik jiwa, membibitkan amarah diri, tercuit ketidak puasan hati. hanya kerana, sesuatu tidak berlaku seperti yang diingini, totally different from expectation.

jangan marah. jangan marah. jangan marah. 3 kali penekanan Rasulullah tentang kawalan emosi terhadap amarah mungkin yg terbaik buat diri sebentar tadi. lupa tentang adanya akal. alpa tentang saranan bersabar. cuai tentang prinsip bhwa setiap manusia berbeza dan kita tidak pernah layak untuk mengawal manusia melakukan apa yg kita kehendaki. kita cuma hamba. layakkan seorang hamba menyuruh hamba yg lain? kita bukan Tu_an. tidak pernah sesekali punya kuasa itu.

beristighfar. berwudhuk. bangun. jalan. duduk. baring. jalan keluar terbaik as Islam teaches me to do whenever i get angry or out of control. it is a 'time-out'. it gives u some space to reflect yourself. to calm ur feeling. to gain your rationality. and im glad to be just silent during my 'time-out' as i wont be able to hurt people verbally. im sorry.

blh juga guling2. melukis. g masak. atau take your shower. it gives u extra time mcm sy slalu bt. mintak maaf housemate lm dlm shower. hehehehe =)

do'a

i found this days ago at uni musolla. it truly benefits me. and i want to share with you. can i? =)

...

.sometimes, im thinking of slapping myself.

.im pretty stupid.

to do things i know WRONG

easily get influenced by others

hey u. r u muslim?