miss them.

pujukan buat diri

kenapa hidup amat sukar? sy cuba berpositif. sgt2 mencuba. tapi segalanya bagai datang tanpa penghujung. sy sgt x nampak jalan keluar. sy sgt penat. sy sgt letih. sy sgt2 celaru.

jangan pernah fikir anda seorang shj yg susah. jangan pernah terlintas anda seorang shj yg sedih. jangan-jangan pernah cakap anda org yg malang, mengapa nasib x memihak pada anda. jangan pernah mencaci diri sendiri atas apa yg berlaku. jangan pernah menyalahkan sesiapa. jangan pernah menyibukkan diri tentang hal manusia lain andai niat anda tidak betul..jangan. jangan. jangan 'atiqah. jangan jadi seperti itu. jangan jadi insan-insan yg anda tidak suka. jangan 'atiqah. peringatan keras bt diri.

jangan jadi insan yg tak redha pada ketentuan Illahi. Allah hanya akan memberi sesuatu yg mampu digalas bukan membebani.

"apabila kamu merasa letih kerana berbuat kebaikan maka sesungguhnya keletihan itu akan hilang dan kebaikan itu akan terus kekal. Dan sekiranya kamu berseronok dgn dosa maka sesungguhnya keseronokkan itu akan hilang dan dosa dilakukan akan terus kekal..." saidina Ali r.a

"...org yg menzalimi diri sendiri ialah mereka yg tunduk dan patuh pada mereka yg tak menghormatinya, mengharapkan kemanisan pada sesuatu yg tak memberi manfaat kepadanya dan menerima pujian dprd mereka yg tidak dikenalinya" imam Syafie r.a

pujukan buat diri.

im trying my best

i've made the decision days ago.

and i'm trying my very3 best to have my normal life back.

for right now, it looks succeed. still in progress. i'm so relief having my own life back. would never turn back. never ever. to be back in this position really demands me 110% hard work. feelings, effort, tears and emotional state that might interrupt my studies here.

i don't want to make anyone sad or frustrated. i'm belong to my family's hope, wish and expectation. i owe my friends' happiness. so, i'm running to get it back. if u hate me of any of these reasons,it means u hate me. it's just me.

i'm taking back everything. i just want my life back and as long it doesn't go in the wrong path, i ll stay with it. insya-Allah. =)

Ya Allah.

Ya Allah,
percaturan kali ini bukan mudah untukku. bukan senang untuk ditimbang tara. bukan enteng untuk dipikul. aku bukan insan hebat untuk tersenyum atas kegusaran. jauh lagi melihat tiap titis air mata mengalir. bukan milikku yg makin kabur. legap. dan luluh.

Ya Allah,
andai dengan kesedihan ini kau anugerahkan aku kemanisan masa hadapan. maka dengan itu aku berbesar hati dengan dugaanMU. aku titipkan pengorbanan kecil, buat kebahagiaan insan-insan tersayang. mohon aku tak kan mengulang kesilapan itu. mohon aku kekal pada jalan yg betul. mohon aku tak terlalu terleka lagi.

Ya Allah,
aku hanya mampu memberi sedikit kudrat. buat harapan yg tinggal dikit. buat pegangan yg makin goyah. buat hati yg makin hilang kekuatannya. aku mohon pertolongan. Ketabahan untuk jiwa ini. jiwanya. jiwa kami semua. aku harus redha dgn takdir. mohon. mohon bantuanMU Ya Allah.

percayalah diri, yg jasad dan roh ini pasti punya penghujung yg pasti. selepas melingkuh dalam kesedihan. melewati zaman gelap ini. aku pasti bertemu ketenangan. demi doa. demi harapan.

unpredictable matter

x sangka. in my 20, i learn a lot about life. too much. real life. adult life. abundance of values. aish~im not regreting any ok, just reflecting.

im no longer playing around with my life. no longer 'atiqah that love to try anything without thinking. im not making decision just for fun anymore. i need to think bad and good, pros and cons, impact and consequences of every single decision made. how it can affect my dream, my beloved ones and myself. also people around me. Ya Allah, kuatkanlah iman saya. Kuatkanlah!

Now, im making another decision. this one? sorry but TERRIBLY HARD. TERRIBLY WORRYING. EXTREMELY TERRIBLY2 MAKING ME HAVING TERRIBLE FLU AND COLD. please, im only 20 years old, fyi. i don't know what to do. i don't know. don't know and don't know. don't know.

give me time to think about it. give me space to make the decision. as u said no time limit. let me be what i want. let me decide with free mind. let me go with the flow. let me follow the fate. and i lay to Allah for everything. tolong saya YA ALLAH!

salam maulidur Rasul semua. =)

=)

i couldn't ask for a better FRIEND than you

with you,

i can be me

i can act silly,

without feeling self-conscious

i can cry,

without feeling embarrassed

i can tell you,

my greatest hopes and plans

with the deepest feeling of trust

i can be myself when i'm with you

because i know

you'll always accept me

just the way i am

.love u lillah.

=)

1st usrah

nice weather in Marsfield today!!

we had our usrah at waterloo park. 4 special guests from new castle. kak mardiah is a doctor doing her intership. kak malina, kak izyan and kak balqis which are medical students.

sesi : ta'ruf cermin.

choose one of your friend to explain about your real name, nickname, D.O.B, the characteristic that she likes in you, what do you hate most and simple sentence that you won't say to her in real life. ^_^. i got 2 friends that they want me to introduce them. Kechik and Tika.

Kechik@Anis

i explain everything that i know bout her, sorry im too nervous at that time. easily forget things that actually i remember, thanks helping me, girl! =) but the last thing i want to say is 'im sorry i may not be the same person that u know 4 2 and half years ago. but believe me i still need u in my life. it's truly terrible 4 not being able hanging out like we used to and that's the only reason why i cry when i describe those things. it means so much 4 me.'

Tika@Tikot

as i said. sometimes i trust u much more than i do to myself. kerana anda adalah sahabat pertama sy yg sy tahu untuk dicintai kerana Allah. anda mengajarkan sy byk perkara yg sy jahil. anda adalah satu-satunya sahabat yg sgt2 sy x mahu lepaskan dalam hidup. the best ever thing that ever happen in my life. =)

okeh2. sile berhenti untuk jiwang. hahahahah. thanks to the sisters. all of you make me thinking again. Think on how to be wise person in thie life granted by Allah.